Damnn.

Gahhh. Haven't kept in contact with him for a while.
And I miss him, like crazayy.  
No no no no, I do not miss you ._. noooo ! 
Sigh, why do I keep denying this :// 


I hope his free and text me soon. 
This empty feeling is killing me . 
Killing me slowly! Jeez Joanne, talk about drama ._. 
Haha I am being so dramatic. #jeez


Text.Me.Soon.Okay? 
A) Yes
B) A
C) B 
HAHA CHOOSE ONE ♥

Zayn Malik ♥

Gahhh how can Zayn be this adorable ?! :D 
Zaynnnnn , marry me pleaseeee ? :) 
Damnnnn, you're so cute I am fainting !!!! 
Haha and they relate youu to Spongebob ! 


My favourite cartoon character of all times :3

Zaynnnn ♥

You're driving me crazayy boy ;) 

Stay cuteee kays ? And marry me soon ? :)

Loveeee and support you till the very end Zayn ♥

The worth of trust.

Trust. 
5 simple letters all combined to form one word.
5 simple letters all combined to bring a deep meaning. 
Trust. 


George MacDonald once said , 
" To be trusted is a better compliment than to be loved "


Well guess what ? You lost it. 
You lost the most expensive thing in the whole world. 
Maybe you took my trust for granted.
Because, well because I trust people easily. 
It must have been amusing for you isn't it ? 


Called yourself a best friend. 
I trusted you with everything. Everything. 
Out of all the others, I trusted you the most. 
But you betrayed it. Well I should have seen that coming. 
I should have seen how easily you take this things for. 


Trust  is like paper. 
Once crumpled, no matter how much you straighten it, 
it'll never be the same again. 


I was dumb forgiving you before. 
Memories might as well stay as memories. 
I can't stand having people who's ever ready to betray me by my side.
So let's just be strangers with memories. Okayy ? 

Bye Bye Miss Sarala.

This post is dedicated to my Moral teacher, Miss Sarala :) 


Soooo, she have been my Moral teacher since like uhh ... 
Few months ago ? :D 
Haha she came as a simple trainee teacher. 
And me , Jien Hern and Gregory as usual mix with all the teachers.
She blend it easily. 


It's funny really you know ?
She was a teacher that made Moral seems so easy through games.
And I really really loved it :) 
It seems more simpler and interesting. 
Goshh I will never forget :3 


Thank you for being that teacher that jokes with 3 of us. 
The one that laugh at our silly jokes. 
The one that always sides me x) 
Gahh I miss you like crazayy teacher. 
The times we had with you , would be memorable :)


Now your back in Johor, teaching the kids there. 
We 3 won't have as much fun as we had when you were here. 
Come visit us soon kays ?! :D 
Byeeee Miss Sarala ! Hope you have a safe trip there ;)

Greetings !

Muahaha heyyyo :D 
Haha greetings from Nerdy Nerdy Joanne :pp
Okayy okayy I know , nerdy weirdy Joanne ._.
Haha but I kind of like it ? :// 
I am weirddd after all ! Haha !


Okayy , so ... weather's hot ._. 
Yeahh haha that's the first thing you should know !
Plus, I am wearing black shirt , and it feels even hotter ://
Goshh , I wish the weather changes :)


Soooo, two weeks of holidays ?
How'd you spend it ? 
Goshh, I am just gonna try staying away from my gadgets
and try studying. Hard. 
But as you all can see, I am failing miserably. 


Stupid gadgets -.-
Soooo hard to stay away you know ?
Haha anyways, I am gonna drink something coldddd. 
Ciaoooo :3 

Teacher's Day Celebration

Guess what ?! :D
It was Teacher's Day celebration last Friday for SMK Taman SEA !
Gosh it was one I will never forget :3 
Soooo me, Jien Hern, Greg, Rachel & Alexia was the backstage crew :3 

Haha we look awesome right ?! :D 
The best ever backstage crew xD 
Sooo first they had telematch and then everyone went to eat.
Then, we had the performances (Y) 
The best ones :3 


There was quite a few larh but the best was, 
Action Reaction performing We Are Young, 
FBI consisting of Ethan, Matthew and Jordan , 
Jared's dance, 
Taekwando dance :)
Yeahh I think those are it. 


Okayy seriously lazyy to go on. 
Haha soooo CIAO PEEPS :3 

Morning yo :)

Morning peeps :) Haha first time updating using phone ! This is gonna be ugly and weird ._.

Thank You One Direction :')

I am backkk :D 
Oh how I hope One Direction would see this :(( 
Okayy so this is like a personal thank you note to you boys :)


Thank you a lot lot to each and every one of you :)
Let us start with Liam Payne :)
The friendly father kind of dude :) 
Your lyrics , the way you sing it full of feeling. 
It really touches me
Seeing how happy you are singing for all the fans out here !
Thanks for making the whole song sound so meaningful :)


Harry Styles ! 
For being the adorable cheeky one in One Direction :)
Haha Harry , whenever they say your flirting with a girl , 
I just take it as your being extra nice to someone extra attractive ;)
Your voice when you sing each of those songs, 
Sends my heart skipping a beat .
It is just full of feeling , I cant help but squeal xD 
Thanks for acting like the lil boy in all those videos , 
and send me laughing all the way :D 


Zayn Malik :') 
Just your name , and I can feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach !
You have the unique voice that is different compare to the others. 
The way you smile with your eyes sparkling after each word , 
you don't know how beautiful you make the song sounds. 
Your tweets, status . 
It all has really deep meaning , I get really jealous of the girl your getting. 
That happy face you always have even when your tired , 
it makes me wanna support you more and more :D 
Haha without you knowing , your perfection :3 


Louis Tomlinson , 
Lou :D The one with his hands all over the other members shoulders xD
I think that is really cute ! :D 
You don't sing much , but I definitely notice you everytime :)
the one who is always with a happy smile , 
and jumping around singing for every fan :) 
I give a happy laugh, seeing you happily enjoying yourself in the videos !
You dont know how much that means to me :') 


Last but not least, Niall Horan :D 
The cute member that I always wanna cuddle xD 
Okayy , did I just weird you out ? Whoops !
haha but really , even with not much of lyrics , 
you contribute a lot in making the video perfect :) 
Your always hanging around with an adorable face ! 
And sorry , but I always mistake you as the youngest :3 
You have that one kiddy look , 
that really makes me squeal especially when you grin xD


Each and every one of you , 
Made One Direction sounds like Perfect-rection ;) 
Wwithout you guys realizing , you make my day a whole lot brighter :D 
When I am sad, I listen to you guys. Happy , you guys. 
You guys are like the main thing in my life :3 
Please continue making songs ! 
Never will I once not support you , up till your 90s or more ;) 
I love you guys because you prove , 
There are at least 5 boys in the whole wide world , 
That wants a every girl to realize they are beautiful. 
That wants every girl , to feel loved :') 
Thank you a lot :D 

Sigh.

Heyyo :) 
Today was such a nice day. Was. 
Then someone really nice posted on my wall :)
Ohh the same person I had previous problem with. 
Finally we talked everything out. 
Nothing much have been solved. Nothing much. 


Haha just that I figured out something really important. 
As usual, this problem started from nothing. 
Just one person overreacting over things and making everything worst. 
As usual. See that there. 
And suddenly things from last year got brought up. 
Hmm but since his busy now, he'll explain later ?


Really, its not like I am guilty or anything. 
But I really want to know what did I do. 
Because I dont recall doing anything I was accused of. 
Okayy, so lemme just think how to put this whole thing. 


Since I already said the right thing , 
Now your trying to get things from the past just to make me bad ?
That's how it looks like now. 

I can't keep running.

That rainbow I see in the sky, 
That rainbow I see in pictures, 
The way people describes it, 
Makes it sound like one of the prettiest thing ever. 


People start describing their life as a rainbow, 
People start saying how beautiful life is, 
The way people describes it, 
Makes me feel so lonely.


Why in the whole world am I crying ?
For a friend who turned out a jerk ?
For parents that never fails to make me disappointed of myself ?
For an elder sister who sees me as the witch of her life ?
For backstabbers that left scars ?
For a crush who left me hurt and is happy now ?


Dammit,
I just wanna know why ?!
Why does everyone seem to have a happier life ?
Why is it that I force my own smile ?
Force my own laughter ?
Force to keep away those tears ?


Screw this, 
at least I have friends. 
At least my family do supports me at times. 
At least I have a younger sister who keeps up with my daily life.
At least I have teachers who cares for me. 
At least I have a wife, son and a monkey. 
At least I have GOD ! 


God , 
the most highest one above all. 
You'll promise me that soon this hurt goes away right ?
You won't keep me hurting anymore right ?
I believe you'll make a change. 
I believe you are there with me.
Tonight God, help me. 


Wipe away this tears, bring me joy.
Wipe away hatred, bring me love. 
Wipe away pain, bring me someone to sooth it. 
Wipe away the burden, give me rest in you. 
Help me tonight. 


To not shed a tear, 
To not hate, 
To not keep on hurting myself, 
To not keep forcing myself, 
To not try to be someone else. 
Help me to be me. 

Okayy yes I don't usually use swearing words this bad. 
But this has gotten wayy out of hand. 
You, have passed your limit Mr. 
F**k you. Seriously. 


There was always a point where you annoy me, 
but I gave it your way. 
Nothing goes your way, 
your get sulky.
People don't act your way, 
you call them bi**h. 
My point ?
Your a screwed up jerk.


Okayy I may be demanding, 
or annoying at times. 
Or I can insult you, IF you start messing with me first.
That is me, I admit. 
At times, I like getting childish , really childish. 
But that doesn't mean you can compare me to those bimbos.
Because I only do that when it comes to you guys.


But seriously, you got a problem with me, 
I have ears you know ?
So tell me , screw me hard.
I dont give a damn because at least I know
What this whole shit is about.
You are the one who started it for goodness sake !


First you dont wanna talk properly , 
Then you blow at me through certain status. 
Then now your crapping shits about me behind my back ?
Nice larh okay ? F**king nice. 
I've got enough of this. 
Enough of all your nonsense. 
What I think, I shall say it out. 
What you think? You bloody make sure its right, 
and feel free to say it out. 


Because your not the only with problems kays ?
And plus I am not the only one to start this thoughts kays ?
I know what the others are thinking. 
The way they talk to me about you, 
I seriously know dude. So mirror yourself first.
Maybe you'll understand that what I am doing now to you, 
is just to hit back on what you did. 


Sorry for the extremely bad words up here !
But totally blown off now. 

Last Friday Afternoon :D

Heyyo blogwalkers :) 
Here I am again, posting some random stuffs :D 
Haha as usual ! 
Anyways todayy I shall talk about last Friday ! :O 
Haha one of the best days ever I can tell you that ;)


So last Friday, me, Jien Hern and Gregory decided to stay back !
Yeahh we were suppose to be studying History back in school ,
But then we said hey why not study in McDonald's ?! 
Better environment you know ;)
So after school, walked all the way to McDonald's :D
Yeahh so went there, bought our food and took a good place upstairs!
But guess who was sitting outside and staring at us ?! ._.


I DONT KNOW EITHER ! Hahaha ! :D 
It's just that there is this dude, outside wearing pink shirt.
He is like staring us the whole time ! 
Damnnn freaky weih ://
And he had this gigolo kind of look so we named him PINK GIGOLO/ PINKY !
Hehe while he stare at us off and on, 
We made fun of him :pp 
And there was a lot of moments that is inappropriate for u guys :pp


Haha basically we had fun time studying, eating , laughing, 
singing, getting mentally raped by pinky , etc etc :D
Then after a while guess who came over to our table ?! :D
LIT KEAN ! 

Kyaa I chose the best picture of him :)
Haha he damn cute weih here :pp
Anyways, he came over and we continued fooling around !


Haha about 4 we started walking home edi ! :)
Anyways it was fun moments really. 
Wanna go again this Friday but oh well...
EXAMS THEN ! ://
Jeez goodbye then ! Gotta start dating my books -.- 

Best friends :3

Best friends :) ♥
I'd like so much to thank them :') 

Everytime I felt down , 

they were there. 

Any problem , they were.

Loveeee them to the max :D

Haha Jien Hern and Gregory :)

Gosh, thanks for being the jokers with me in class. 

Haha seriously , I find this year's class splendid !

You guys contribute a lot to that ! 

For hearing my problems , for laughing at my jokes.

Setting pranks on each other xD 

I am literally laughing right now thinking about today xD

Haha Jien Hern we were pretty mean, scribbling Greg's chair

with highlighters :) 

Haha now his pants is all GREEN AND ORANGE !

Lolololol xD

Thanks both of you, for always lighting up my day in class :)

Rachel and Alexia :D

Haha ! Rachel my half monkey :3 and Alexia my wifeyy !

Haha loveeee you both ttm :3 

Our lameee jokes, naughty acts, funny characters xD

Miss camp man ! Sleeping and bathing together :D 

Haha Rachel , Alexia you guys are the two girly funny girls xD

LOveee ya to the bits :3 

Thanks Rachel , for always being my victim for bully >:)

And Alexia, for making horny jokes xD

Goshh, makes me laugh ttm :D 

Haha thanks to ya both, for always making me laugh !

Yes, whenever I see you guys, I'll be laughing xD

Lastly, Jason and Gita. 

Thanks for being the ones there.
Listening to my crapps . 

Jason , for always following me OUT OF SCHOOL ! 

And Gita , for being such a funny girl in tuition.
Goshh , you guys are funny. Haha ! 

So as I say , 

THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS :D

Loveeee ya guys to the bits :3

Damn, IMY.

I moved on. I forgot you. I don't miss you. I don't love you. 


This feeling never really went away. 
I miss those texts. 
I miss those conversations. 
I miss those hugs. 
I miss those smiles.
I miss those secrets we shared. 
I miss you. 


Is this feeling wrong ? 
Am I making a huge mistake ? 
Am I not suppose to remember you ? 


Everything is just so hard. 
When your together with my close friend. 
Everything is just so hard. 
When everytime we meet , 
we don't say a thing. 
Everything is simply difficult. 


Why is it so hard?
Puppy love , monkey love , kid's love.
I thought this was suppose to be those kind of love.
But why is it so hard to forget, my feelings ? 


I miss you to the max. 
To the bottom of my heart. 
I miss you. 

Stupid backstabbers.

Okayy , you see, 


I am not exactly dumb. 
I am not exactly blind. 


I know , there is something up. 
You guys are just not the way you were. 
Okayy , maybe we all are not anymore. 
I understand people change. 


But really , got a problem with me ?
Say it in my face . 
Don't you freaking go back to your own personal space 
And crapp all the sh*ts about me. 


And I do not know why I am so stupid. 
I read that message. 
I knew you had something with one of my post on my bloggie,
but then I still treat you like nothing happen. 


When I see you guys, I just forget about all of those. 
And treat you as I forgot everything. 
I don't know what I did wrong, I don't know my mistake.
Just freaking tell me you know ?


It hurts a lot, because I trust you guys. 
Right to the bottom of my heart. 


"I'm not trying to fix it, or anything. I'm trying to deal with it. "
Aria - Pretty Little Liars